Wednesday, January 18, 2012

My cousin passed; how I feel.

This past Sunday (1/15/12) I received a text from my cousin saying his brother had past. He had been dealing with cancer for a while. I went to Knoxville during the holidays when his grandmother (my old babysitter, Muggie) called me and said, "Terrence not doing well. He can die any day now." I cried so hard because I couldn't imagine him gone. Terrence, his twin brother, Torrence, and my other cousins all grew up together. Even though they were my cousins by marriage, I was more close to them than my blood cousins. We played games together, ate together, got in trouble together, and even took naps together.

After Muggie called me, as soon as I got home, I made it my business to see him. I went to see him twice. The first time I went I didn't get a chance to talk to him much. My mother came and his mother and brother was there, too. I talked mainly to his brother, which we had a good conversation. It made me realize how much I miss being around them.

The second time I visit, I was extremely nervous because I was by myself. I was nervous because I didn't know what to say to a person who is dying. I didn't know rather if I needed to be cheerful or regular or what. Got to his room, took a deep breath, prayed, and went in.

He was sleep. I sat quietly until he woke up. He woke and we began talking. I kinda just followed his flow of the conversations. They were sweet and pleasant. We had a few laughs but not too many. Two things stood out to me. One, he told me when he got saved. Two, right before I left, I had told him I had an interview the next day and he said he was praying for me. With those two being said, it gave me confirmation that he still had faith, especially him praying for me even in the condition he was in. It brought me peace.

He has been on my heart for the longest. So many thought have come to mind. One of the main thoughts was life. It made me think about mind and how I wanted to spend the rest of my life. I have to live right. I don't want to be on my dying bed knowing the wrong things I have done. I want to be a peace. And as a believer I felt the need to share this with you. If you don't have it, seek Salvation today. Yahweh and Yeshua are real and their love will keep you in perfect peace. To know Them is by reading the Scripture. Pray the Scripture, tithe, and fast. I love you, too!

Be blessed, Brothers and Sisters.

Monday, January 9, 2012

Complicated! Relating to previous blog!

OMG! God speaks through me when I'm not even paying attention. I posted about complication of life in the last post and then I heard this today by friend I used to sing with, Markevius Faulkner. His album is so beautiful. Support :)

BUT....listen to this song! So powerful and moving!

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Visiting Knoxville! Happy New Year!

 Look at that mountain! Growing up in a not flat but sort of hilly area, I get excited and amazed when I see mountains. I went to Knoxville the day after Christmas for a job interview but mainly to chill and enjoy the city. The city was absolutely beautiful and the people were extremely nice.






I stayed with my old roommate from college. While she was at working I took a journey through the city by catching the bus. An all-day fair cost $4. Before getting to any bus stop, I had to climb this long, long hill. My cardiac was cranked afterwards. LOL

 Pic of downtown. Orange was EVERYWHERE! UGH! I am blue and gray fan! GO TIGERS GO!


My friend took me to a used bookstore. The place was huge! Books were downstairs, music and videos upstairs. 
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And the partying began NYE in Old City, which is downtown Knoxville! The place we went to had 3 levels. My friend, her old coworker, and I hit all 3 levels and had a great time! HAPPY NEW YEAR!





The night I was returning home, my homie prepared a huge, delicious dinner and I was definitely satisfied!