Be Sensitive to Others...

We as people of God should be sensitive to others. Everyone has imperfections. Everyone has areas to grow in. Everyone will always have weaknesses. If you are able to identify someone else's weakness, help before you talk. It is our duty as servants of God to serve His people. Take the time to review over your own imperfections and areas to grow in. We could all use a little improvement. Intercede in prayer for one another. Be bless and encouraged Loves!

Wait patiently...

Romans 8:25 But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.

The Bible teaches us to ask and we shall receive as long as it is in the will of God (1 John 5:14). So before we asked God, we should ask ourselves "how will this benefit the Kingdom of God?" (Matthew 6:33) After we ask, we wait. How should we wait? Patiently. In this waiting period so many distractions can come that will make you lose hope and slowly start doubting, ultimately, not believing and trusting in God. This is a mixture of flesh, the world, and the prince of the world coming at you. This is when we start taking control of our own situations. But remember to not be anxious. Ask Him and give thanks to Him before the blessing comes and He will bring you peace about it. (Phil 6:4)

One of the toughest things to do is KEEP our mind focused on the promise and motivated. Our eyes is the gateway to our thoughts but we must remember to not get distracted by what we see. No matter how bad it looks, we must praise the Lord. (Habakkuk 3:17-19) Remember the vision/dream and keep our minds on excellence and praiseworthy. (Phil 4:8) And remember to walk in the Spirit, live by the Spirit, and think like the Spirit. Importantly, pray in the Spirit. And when you don't know what ask for remember Romans 8:26-27. The Holy Spirit will search your heart and intercedes for us.

I am currently waiting on some things to manifest in my life from God. To be transparent, I am constantly battling with my mind to not lose hope. So I constantly remind myself of things He has done before. What more can He do now? Very soon I will be sharing what the next promises in my life will be to you. Stay tune.....

Gonna catch hell. Point blank. (Referring to previous blog.)

Sitting in God's presence and I was told to go to John and read about how Jesus leaves us for a moment to go to the Father who is greater. But He promises us the Holy Spirit. These scripture then stood out to me.

John 14:29-31 NIV

I have told you now before it happens, so that when it does happen you will believe. I will not say much more to you, for the prince of this world is coming. He has no hold over me, but he comes so that the world may learn that I love the Father and do exactly what my Father has commanded me. “Come now; let us leave.

It always seems like Jesus has left us hanging. No. We have to learn, or not even learn but to just trust the Holy Spirit. We are of the world but not in it. Jesus does reveal Himself to the world. So we have trust the Holy Spirit when dealing with the prince of the world.

Okay, so we're gonna catch hell. Point blank. But we just gotta endure and trust the Holy Spirit.

I am done thinking...

Since I've been on this Christian journey, I have always known that if I do what can and gotta do God will meet me half way. And for the most part, it has happened. I am always going and going, making sure my house is in order, constantly thinking of ways to get and stay ahead, and thinking and thinking. Now every blessing that has come, I always say, "Thank You Lord" because I don't want HIs favor to turn from me. I'm scared to live life without Him.

Now yes, it's true, if you do your part, He'll meet you halfway. Or even past the halfway point. However, I have been thinking and thinking and doing things to stay ahead until I’ve been doing more thinking than praying. So you hear the saying "Give credit to where credit is due." How can I give God credit if the things that are happening now are because of me? Of course God understands that I’m still striving to live right according to His word. But I have started seeing hell after hell.

At this point I can’t distinguish if it’s storms that I’m supposed to go through, or if I’m doing something I’m not supposed to do. I’ve been asking questions now like "If God won’t put more on us than we can bear, then why I feel like I can’t bear?" Or questions like, "God, are You mad at me?"

So at first I’m thinking (see there I go thinking), I’m thinking "Well, maybe I need to go into overdrive and started working harder. But it seems the more I try to work harder, the more hell I catch. So at this point, I give up. I give up as far as trying to figure it out. And immediately, I realize I need to go into prayer. And not just say a prayer, but to dwell in a hiding place and go into worship and to be in His presence. I got to go into worship and praise and set the atmosphere because whatever you need, in that atmosphere, things can change for the better.

So the point is, I'm not necessarily going to stop thinking. But there has to be balance between thinking and prayer life. Once cannot out weigh the other but depends on each other

So now, let me go, turn my music on, and began to go in war zone in prayer.

The Single Life - Movies and the Thrift Store

Friday I took myself to the $2.50 movies. Yes, I took myself out on a date. As mentioned in an earlier blog, I decided to start doing a lifestyle change. My normal routine for over a year has been go to work and come home, go to church and come home, go to the grocery store and come home. Yet I complain about how I'm tired of being single and not having many friends. However, my money is tight, right? So everything I do has to be included in the budget. Yes, ballin' on a budget. So I'm starting off with the $2 movies. Yeah, I know, you can't meet people while at the movies but at least I'm out and doing something I will enjoy instead of sitting at home being bored and lonely.

So yeah, I watched the movie and there's a thrift store not too far from that always have nice items in it. I'm looking around and found a cute sweater and skirt. I went to the cashier to ask for a key to the dressing room. The guy was handsome, and Hershey chocolate skin tone with a white teeth, and beautiful smile. So I couldn't help but give him the best smile I had. (So I've been practicing my beautiful-girl look in the mirror lately and hoping it will work now...you are welcome to laugh.)

So I'm headed to the dressing room thinking about how handsome he was and if I should make a move. (I've been in this particular city for almost 2 years and have not been approached. So even though I've said to myself I'm letting a guy approach me, I', actually thinking about approaching this guy.) Tried on the sweater, cute. Skirt, too tight.

Headed to the register to buy the sweater. The only thought I had was "What I'm gonna do?" Get to the register and he's checking out someone. So I go look at the CD's nearby to build up some type of confidence. The store phone rings and he answers. He's naming things that sounded like toppings for a pizza. Some of his words aren't clear because I guess he's trying to talk low and not get noticed. I'm thinking, "Wooow..he has a nice voice!" Then at the end of the call, "Thanks, baby."

Me....everything stopped in my little world. (This is your opportunity to laugh at me because I sure in the heck did.) It was not funny but it was funny. Then I justified in my spirit that I didn't hear him clearly and that he could have said anything other than "Thanks, baby."

Yeah, so, I go to the register. He asked me if everything was alright. I smiled making sure my dimples were showing because I have been practicing this smile in the mirror, I opened my eyes wider because I feel like they give more expression when wider and I say, "Yes."

Now I'm thinking, "That's it? That's all I'm gonna say? How old am I? 16? 'Cause I'm acting like one." He bags me up and I walk out the store.

As I'm walking to the car, I call my god sis. I tell her I wanna give this guy my number. So I'm sitting in the car for 5 minutes and we're going back and forth about whether I should do this or not. Really, it's me talking to her debating if I should do this.

So one of my Christian male friends pulls up out of nowhere! I immediately thought, "LET ME ASK HIM! A CHRISTIAN MAN WILL NEVER LEAD YOU WRONG!" I tell him the situation, I tell him I feel awkward even going through this, and him and his sisters give me a few pointers along with confidence to approach him.

I finally came up with thought to ask him first if he's involved. NOTE: One thing about most guys is that they will not tell you they're involved if you don't ask!!!

Y'all, I went back into the store, walked to the counter, and said with my dimple-smile, "Excuse me, are you involved?" He smiles and he says, "Uhhhhhh..." and immediately I say, "Yup! You're involved because you wouldn't take too long to answer." He took a deep breath and said, "Yes, I am." I said okay and walked off.

I got back in my car and started laughing at myself because I know this is going to be one heck of a  single life adventure and I know importantly that I am going to have to wait on God.

But in the mean time, I'm blogging about my single life to give you and me a good laugh. Peace and blessings :)

Psalm 27:13-14

I remain confident in of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.

“Too Independent"

First and foremost, I would like to take this time to laugh…….haahahahhahhahahhhahaaa.

Thank you.

Now, I have been told by guys that the reason I haven’t been approached is because I’m come off too independent. It was confusing to me because I don’t have a sign on me saying “I’m too independent” so how are they assuming or figuring this out? I’m told it is because the way I carry myself.

Blank stare.

I carry myself as a lady, I thought. I don’t show too much skin, my clothes aren’t too fitted, but I keep sexy enough to enforce my “lady-ness.” Truly there’s nothing wrong with that, right? I hear all the time that you attract guys according to how you dress. This is true, right? But my question is what makes me look “too independent?”

So I decided to ask my best friends who have known me for a very long time, at least half of my life. They said yes, I come off as too independent. I make it seem that I don’t need a guy. Some of the things they said were I’m very organized; I have a job, my own place, and car; I’m always trying to fix things myself; I try to avoid anything leading to failure; I’m intelligent and smart and know a lot about different subjects; and so forth.

So I’m hearing all of this, right? And now I’m thinking “so I need to appear vulnerable and weak and dumb?” And I’m also thinking, “That’s not going to happen!” But now I’m feeling stuck between a rock and a hard place. How do I “look” available for dating and not look “too independent” but not look “too weak”? 0_o

Now this is the part where you are free to laugh at me. So I’m literally in the mirror looking at myself trying to figure how do I not look too independent. Do I smile this way or that way? Do I walk like this or like that? Should laugh with confidence or laugh shyly? Should I wear this to make my booty look big or should I wear this make up to enhance my eyes? I laughed at myself and said this is dumb and kept it moving because I knew deep down inside, I’m going to be miss independent anyway BECAUSE I HAVE NO CHOICE!

So yeah, I know I have no choice. I have NO ONE but Yahweh to rely on. My money is tight so I have NO room to do dumb things or make dumb decisions. Dumb choices like go out a spend money on getting drunk. Or spend my bill money on clothes and shoes. Or allowing someone to drive my car and they aren’t on my insurance and I KNOW they ain’t got no money if ended up in an car accident. Or allow someone to spend the night over my house and they don’t have their own place and it because a bad habit to break. All these things are subject to happen if I lose my “independence” and guess whose left hanging over a cliff? Me. That’s not going to happen. I’m not going to be screwed over.

Okay, so I know that I’m supposed to continue being me but what about being approached? Lol. It’s funny and serious at the same time.

I talked to a friend who has been married for almost two years and whose parents have been married for over 20 years. The homie is full of wisdom! She said to me that she was in the same position before and knew exactly how I felt. But she told something that brought me peace with myself. She said you are doing fine. Don’t stop being independent. These are your morals and values and if you lower it you’ll always end up with someone who standards aren’t as high as yours and that’s a life of unhappiness.

She continued saying if a man is going to approach you, his standards, if not the same, should be higher, or at least to trying to get higher. He should be able to prove that he can take care of his self and you and one day, your children. But she concluded with this powerful yet simple statement: If he loves Yahweh with all his heart, he will know how to love you. She said after dating so many guys with the things she wanted in a guy (flesh), none of them were for her. She said she finally surrendered to Yahweh and said “Send me someone that You have for me,” and that was her only prayer. He definitely sent a man who feared Him to her. I have met this guy and can testify that he is really a great guy to her!

After hearing this from her, I found peace in myself. The thought of continuing being me without trying to look approachable removes all frustration, confusion, and stress. It’s so easy to just be me but the joy of being me is the best part!

So I just want to give Yahweh a shout out for always sending His angels of wisdom to me. I’m going to continue to do be me and also continue to learn, gain wisdom, and improve myself until Yahweh says it’s time to me my “Adam”. Lol.

Peace and blessings!

Fall is here!

Yesterday was the first day of Fall. Most compare this season to depression. However, you have the power in your tongue declare Victory over YOUR season. Do not be conform of this world and what people say about the Fall season. I can testify that many blessings can come and will come during this season. One testify for me was receiving a brand new 2012 car. Do not limit yourself to what you see but to believe the unbelievable. You are not too young or too old to receive anything from God.

Enjoy this season for it is the season of change. And check this out, in other parts of the world they are experience Spring...still a season of change. And also some experience winter or summer all year round. And guess what? They still gotta go through changes, too! Declare your season today!

Happy Fall Season! Be bless. Be encourage!

Lifestyle Change...

After these last couple of weeks, I realized I've been doing the same thing for four months non-stop. I go to work, I come home. I go to church, I come home. Saturdays? I go to rehearsal--church--and then, go home. Sunday? Church and go home. Pay checks from work? After I've paid all my bills, I only have money for groceries and gas.

Well, guess what? I'M TIRED OF IT! I'M CHANGING IT NOW!

Last weekend, I put $10 in my tank and went to the Smoky Mountains with a friend. Instead of buying gas from Kroger/Shell, which I have been faithful to for 10 months, I bought gas from Marathon company. OMGGGGG! This gas does NOT burn as fast as Kroger! I saw a breakthrough in my life after buying this gas!!! I immediately saw myself being able to do more and save more. The main reason why I haven't been able to do much was because I've been trying to conserve gas!

Tomorrow I'm taking myself out on a date. A coworker who plays in a band is playing tomorrow and free admission. What a perfect date to myself, right???? And I plan on being the perfect gentleman, too! LOL

Unease Feeling: Praise God or Get Mad

Ever been in an unease feeling where things can easily fall apart or you have no idea what's going to happen next or you just don't feel secure about the future? May sound crazy to the unbelievers or those who are struggling to believe, but this the opportunity to laugh in enjoyment and to praise God. 

The uncomfortable moments are purposely designed to test you. Will you panic, get frustrated and give up, or will test your faith in Him and trust/know that God is going to bring you out? Let me warn you, you DON'T WANT TO PANIC OR TURN YOUR BACK ON GOD! The worse will happen. 

Well, for me, I def in an unease chapter in my life and I choose to praise God through it! It's really funny, too, because I see myself 2 or 3 yrs ago panicking and getting mad at God wondering why He's letting these things happen to me. I'm good today because even when I was panicking and angry He STILL blessed me. So what kind of blessings will I receive if I just trust and praise Him????

BE ENCOURAGED FACEBOOK! DON'T GIVE UP!

New Job!

Hello all! It has definitely been a minute. And many things have happened since I've last blogged on here. Well, let me tell you about my new job.

Before the new job, I was losing interest fast in my old job. I mean FAST! To the point were I was not performing my best and my budget was about to start struggling. It was hard to apply myself to it. It was like torture forcing myself to do something I had lost ALL intereste in. And as usual, I began amending my resume and began my job hunt.

A friend of mine told me about a job opening at her company. When I looked at the postings on the website, there were two that I was interested in. The one I was really interested in was only 30 hrs a week and paid $9/hr, which cannot cover my expenses. So I applied for the other position which was full time.

I received an email for the hiring manager saying that position I applied for was filled but would like for me to interview for the other position. At first I was thinking, "No, that's not enough money." But then I was like, "Let me go on and interview. They can at least see my face and hear my talents. They may have another position one day and think of me."

So I interviewed with the hiring manager Friday, and later that day afterwards, I was scheduled for a second interview that Monday.

The whole weekend I thank God. Nothing in particular. Just thanked Him and was in high praise. I didn't get discouraged about anything. Not even the fact this job was 30 hrs a week for $9. I prepared my mine to either negotiate or just began looking for another job. Either way, I was in high praise.

The hiring manager talked to my friend who works that and ask how would I feel about the pay. My friend was like, "That's not enough...see what you can do."

Monday came. I was at my other job and my interview was on my lunch break.

Lunch came and I flew to get to my interview. Interviewed with the hiring manager and CEO and afterwards, I was just WAITING for them to tell me the pay. I was ready to negotiate! They asked if I had any questions and I said no. Then the hiring manager says she wish she could tell me the pay but she is waiting on some things....or something worded like that. Now my face expression was cool and I was like "Okay, that's fine.."staying cool, right. But in my mind, "GOD, WHAT YOU DOING??? YOU WORKING SOMETHING OUT??? DO WHAT YOU DO, LORD!"

So, I thanked them and they told me to be listening for a call that evening and I left. As I was leaving, kept on praising and thanking God. Didn't know what was about to happen but I knew God was working.

Right when I got home from work, I received a phone call from the hiring manager. She offered me the position but get this! They made it a full time position, she told me the benefits, and my salary for the year! While she was talking, I was in my apartment jumping up and down but keeping and talking cool on the phone like everything was normal. When I hung up I ran and jumped around my apartment punching the air, throwing my hands up praising God! I didn't know what to do or how to feel! I didn't know if I should cry or laugh! I did it all! Tears 2 seconds, laughed 2 seconds!

I got in the car and drove and didn't know where to go. Finally I went to Chedder's and took myself out. My friend met up with me and we shared how good God is.

So the point of this is: no matter what don't get discouraged. You don't know what God is doing in the background. Continue to praise and thank God. You don't have to thank Him for anything specific. Just thank Him and watch the favor come.

Receiving my email address from my new job!

Going through the storm.

 

 

James 1:12 NIV

Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.

(James has always been my man!)

Got on the prayer line this morning and received a good lesson! And one thing Pastor said was he was on an airplane and they had entered into a storm. He said he was scared. The pilot told the flight attendents to sit down. He told the passengers that they couldn’t land where they were supposed to and was low on fuel. The Pastor said he was scared. They landed in another place instead fill up. After an hr the pilot said they will be entering back into the storm. The Pastor said he wasn’t scared this time b/c he had been thru this storm before!

Afterwards, at work, I pondered on this and started drawing at my desk and this is the picture I drew.

Persevere through your storms and gain wisdom through. When you enter the same storm again, you won’t be scared and will be prepared. God will guide us through with the right sources; we just have to trust Him!

Take time, be patience, remove the tangles, and then, watch the results.

I shampooed and detangled and straighten my hair. It took a while because I had so many tangles in my hair. I had to shampoo it about 8 times and it took about 1.5 hrs to detangle alone. About 2.5 hrs to straighten. After I was done, I was very impress of the results I saw. My hair is longer than ever.

And then God spoke to me about the process of my hair. Do the same with your life. I normally hate doing my hair b/c it takes so much time and patience. I heard God say, "Take time with your life. Be patience with your life. Remove all the tangles out your life, and then, watch and be amazed of the results!"

Let me prepare! You prepare!